Today is my birthday. Last week I had about 30 symptoms I was dealing with. I still had to work, be a mom and wife. Saturday night hit and my body screamed, "No More DAMMIT!".
Two months ago I switched my doctor. That was an incredibly hard decision. I had been declining in my health for over a decade and under her care I was able to see much improvement. However, she was very expensive and if I was going to be able to finish treatment I needed to find a quality specialist that is more affordable. I hate how expensive and complicated it is to treat Lyme...it is truly insane!
This new Lyme Literate doctor took me off about 40 pills a day that my previous doctor had prescribed. When Saturday night hit and I could only walk with major concentration on each step and would get dizzy spells (and a bunch of other terrible symptoms), I thought, "Oh Crap! I am getting worse!". My doctor had been out of town Friday and wasn't able to return my messages until Monday, at which time he concluded it was herxing. That is the nasty side effect of killing off Lyme. The strength of the herx depends on the intensity of the treatment. The trick is to not treat too hard that the body is unable to function in a normal way.
I have spent the last 4 days detoxing (baths, sauna, a gazillion cups of water ect) resting and sleep sleep sleeping. Also my hubby did a bunch of juicing veggies and cooked me some healthy meals. I am so pleased to say I am feeling much better. That is wonderful but I am still pissed.
I am infuriated that I am 2 1/2 years into intensive treatment and have stabalized. I have goals. I want to fully live. I want the energy inside of me to be able to escape. I want to skate. That was my spring goal: to trail skate slowly for (5-20 minutes). My ankles have given out and ones in a boot the other an ace bandage.
As long as I can remember I have skated. As a kid we were blessed with a huge driveway and would spend our summers swimming at Heathers and skating at Chrissys. Then as a teen I skated everywhere, everyday. My favorite was to skate along the beach for hours. Then when I lived in Seattle I loved to skate on the trail, again for hours. I frequently skate there in my meditations. It is the most incredible beautiful skate. I bet CDA and Spokane have comparable gorgeous trails to skate on & I am going crazy waiting to find out for myself!
Ok so new goal:
1. Next spring, trail skate
2. Next May 15, have a big 40th birthday party with dancing (and get to participate for more than a minute and NOT getting wiped out for days after!).
This year? Realize I have to make small goals that consist of each day making sure I adhere strictly to my treatment and I need to drink a gazillion cups of water, take pills on time throughout the day, sleep those 12 hours a night my body needs to heal, let worry go, avoid sugar and gluten, hug & laugh with my kids, hubs and friends!
Two months ago I switched my doctor. That was an incredibly hard decision. I had been declining in my health for over a decade and under her care I was able to see much improvement. However, she was very expensive and if I was going to be able to finish treatment I needed to find a quality specialist that is more affordable. I hate how expensive and complicated it is to treat Lyme...it is truly insane!
This new Lyme Literate doctor took me off about 40 pills a day that my previous doctor had prescribed. When Saturday night hit and I could only walk with major concentration on each step and would get dizzy spells (and a bunch of other terrible symptoms), I thought, "Oh Crap! I am getting worse!". My doctor had been out of town Friday and wasn't able to return my messages until Monday, at which time he concluded it was herxing. That is the nasty side effect of killing off Lyme. The strength of the herx depends on the intensity of the treatment. The trick is to not treat too hard that the body is unable to function in a normal way.
I have spent the last 4 days detoxing (baths, sauna, a gazillion cups of water ect) resting and sleep sleep sleeping. Also my hubby did a bunch of juicing veggies and cooked me some healthy meals. I am so pleased to say I am feeling much better. That is wonderful but I am still pissed.
I am infuriated that I am 2 1/2 years into intensive treatment and have stabalized. I have goals. I want to fully live. I want the energy inside of me to be able to escape. I want to skate. That was my spring goal: to trail skate slowly for (5-20 minutes). My ankles have given out and ones in a boot the other an ace bandage.
As long as I can remember I have skated. As a kid we were blessed with a huge driveway and would spend our summers swimming at Heathers and skating at Chrissys. Then as a teen I skated everywhere, everyday. My favorite was to skate along the beach for hours. Then when I lived in Seattle I loved to skate on the trail, again for hours. I frequently skate there in my meditations. It is the most incredible beautiful skate. I bet CDA and Spokane have comparable gorgeous trails to skate on & I am going crazy waiting to find out for myself!
Ok so new goal:
1. Next spring, trail skate
2. Next May 15, have a big 40th birthday party with dancing (and get to participate for more than a minute and NOT getting wiped out for days after!).
This year? Realize I have to make small goals that consist of each day making sure I adhere strictly to my treatment and I need to drink a gazillion cups of water, take pills on time throughout the day, sleep those 12 hours a night my body needs to heal, let worry go, avoid sugar and gluten, hug & laugh with my kids, hubs and friends!
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